The sudden quietus, is not something I expected. Since I didn’t expected it, I at least was or am stupefied. Before I write any further, I want to warn this post is not an allegory. So stop wasting your time right now.
I always knew I was a hack (no not as a writer, but maybe, I don’t know). I also knew that I was apathetic. But I was (or am) have always been misconstrued. I was not affected by it, part of the problem I thought was I had a small circle of people I interacted with (5), which got much smaller (3). These earthlings don’t involve any family members. But if you add them up; the number does add up to 6. But I talk only to my sibling and Mom. Dad is (always was) a different tale altogether.
So anyway enough with the family drama, I am as some of you might now (5, I think, see here too I am restrained) not new to WordPress. I was here before, I was active for full two months. And then I got shut down. But in these two months, I had a ton of fights, as it happens the curse of my construed carried here also. Also I had to give explanations, and when needed engage in a scrimmage or two.
So imagine my surprise when I returned, and lo and behold, the curse returned. It was not something I didn’t anticipate, but now I had a big fight with my sibling (in real life), which ended with the words, “You won’t understand, maybe the problem is not in other peoples view, but yours.” (P. S. :-The fight was on a totally different related subject in which my voice ascended into high pitch filled with anger.)
It made me think, and I realised, No, I am not. See I told you, no allegory.